I was thinking today... The older I get the more I realize that family is where it's at. People come and go (there are the few that are more like family) but family members are there forever. Family is the focal point in life, and in death. My family does not define me, yet they help to shape me into who I am. With them I feel stronger and better equipped to conquer the world, and without them I am just me. I met Devin at Subway for lunch today. Apparently it was the high school's lunch time too, because there was several students there. I noticed how involved they seemed to be in their young lives and I wanted to walk up to them and tell them not to worry about that stuff, that it was just a small part of life and that their lives would blossom and grow as their families did. Of course they wouldn't have listened to me because I know I didn't listen when people tried to tell me the same thing. It just makes me appreciate my family even more now. I can't imagine my life without Devin and Corey. They are my world and they keep me going. I feel like I can't fully express my gratitude for such a wonderful husband and son and hopefully it will keep getting better.
Well, Corey is still jealous of Casey. The other day Corey walked over to Casey and said "mice" (that's what he says when he wants to pet Casey because I'm always telling him to be nice). Instead of petting Casey, Corey picked the poor dog up over his head and dropped him on the floor. Devin gave Corey a swat on his fanny and then explained to him that it is not nice to hurt Casey. So Corey walks over to Casey again and says "mice" and then he tried to step on him!! Thankfully Devin caught him before he succeeded in crushing Casey. That has been the most severe incidence so far, but I still keep a close eye on them when Casey is around. Chuck seems to be adjusting to Casey just fine too. Casey has been kicked like a football by Chuck on accident but nothing severe. Chuck is really cute when he plays with Casey. They play tug of war and Chuck will let Casey win, but he tugs every now and then so Casey feels like he is giving Chuck a run for his money. I am so thankful to have all four of the gentlemen in my life around. I have Devin, Corey, Chuck, and Casey all to keep me company and make me laugh.
Well, last week we watched my mother-in-law's Yorkie. I decided that I liked him, so Devin said that we could look for one of our own. Well, I looked and found one! We drove to Apache Junction last night and got back with little Casey at about 11:30 p.m. On the drive home I kind of started laughing and Devin asked what I was laughing at. I said that some people buy lap dogs, but I bought a purse dog. Devin asked what I was talking about, so I explained further. I now have a dog that is portable enough to go just about everywhere. He fits not just in my lap, but in just about any purse. Once I have him potty trained I can take him anywhere I go... He's a purse dog! Casey is just tiny and fun and cuddly and cute as ever! He likes to play and he cuddles a lot. I'm guessing that he is about two pounds and he shouldn't get much bigger. He is a tea-cup Yorkie. I will post pictures when I take some. I think Casey is just what I need right now. Corey is still adjusting to the idea of having something else take away mom and dad's attention, but he knows he has to be nice and sweet to Casey because he is a baby. Corey brought a book to me to read to him this morning and he sat in my lap. After I started reading the book, Casey decided he wanted to cuddle and read a book too. He climbed into Corey's lap and Corey pushed him back to the floor. But later Corey was trying to pet Casey and be "mice" (nice). I think they will get along well...eventually.
Thank you to all of you. We are doing okay. We just take it one day at a time, one minute at a time really. I mostly try not to think about it and that seems to help. I know that it will get easier over time. I won't ever forget Leavi, but I will have to be content knowing that I will get to hold him again someday. I wanted to bring him home and share my life with him, but I guess that Heavenly Father has another plan. Devin has gone back to work this week. I don't think he was very excited about it, but he went anyway. He is such a great help to me. He just lets me cry when I need to cry and he'll let me talk when I need to talk. Corey still says "baby" when he see babies or pictures of babies. I think he knows that something is going on, but he doesn't know what. He is getting back into his normal routine, so I'm glad for that.
Well, for anyone that hasn't heard yet, I had Leavi last Sunday. The umbilical cord got twisted and it cut off the blood flow and nourishment. We had a small graveside service for him today. Thank you to all of you who have showed your love and support. Leavi Michael Pinckard, born Sunday April 5, 2009